Greetings! I’m Kristi.
I can only use my social action as a vehicle to work on myself, to offer my being for the relief of suffering.Ram Das
On my 20th birthday, I nearly died from a suicide attempt (you can read about it here). Two weeks in a psychiatric ward followed by intense psychotherapy and a cocktail of meds failed to free me from my all-consuming pain, and I knew that it was only a matter of time before I was either back in the hospital or dead.
But, the Universe had other plans. After receiving a grim prognosis from my psychiatrist, I heard a voice say, “You are responsible for your own happiness.” This was the kick-in-the-ass wake-up call I needed to begin taking ownership of my life. Miraculously, the depression and suicidal ideations that had plagued me for a decade disappeared the instant I heard those words.
Since then, my life has undergone several intense transformations (check out each “era” of My Story), and my heart told me that my purpose was to help others. But, I didn’t have the tools to do that – I just had the backstory for a crazy AF Netflix series. It took working with a mentor for 7 years for me to finally understand how my story could inspire change in others.
Even then, I spent years doubting my worthiness to share what I had learned. After all, I am a single mom who got knocked up from break up sex. I’ve been divorced twice. And let’s not talk about my finances…Dave Ramsey would have a field day with me! What could I possibly offer the world?
It took a vision of me speaking publicly about my failed suicide attempt and an existential crisis to realize that the time for me to share was now – that I didn’t have to do this perfectly or be a studied expert in the field of personal growth in order to be of service to others.
I may suck (although I’m making some serious progress) when it comes to managing my finances, but I am a master at forgiving others, managing the dichotomy of being empathetic while setting boundaries, and living an unconventional life.
I fiercely believe that my purpose is to share my “experience, strength, and hope” from the heart and with rawness. My life will never be an Instagram fairy tale. I’ve been a bit neurotic, impulsive, and irresponsible, and I’ve hurt others – sometimes badly. But, it’s my hope that through my transparency and vulnerability you will identify with enough of my story to find some comfort or even inspiration in it.
Life is hard. Life is painful. And life is beautiful. What you focus on reflects the quality of your life and it’s something you control no matter what your external circumstances are. If I can help even a single reader to recognize this enough to inspire positive change in their life, I’ve fulfilled my purpose.