Grow the F*ck Up

A blog about how to be a better human

The world doesn't owe you a damn thing.

Kristi Amdahl

Conduit for Love...

...while wearing her big girl pants. Embracer of uncertainty. Taker of no shit.

Kristi Amdahl profile April 2019-2


Stories, Musings, and other Tidbits

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  • You Are a Magnet

    October 31, 2018
    You are a magnet, and what you embody you will attract right back. If you embody stress, you will attract more opportunities to be stressed....
  • Lies I Tell Myself

    October 1, 2018
    Fall – being the season of transition, death, and decay – inspires me to turn inward, to recalibrate my compass. As I’ve shared in this post,...
  • I’m Angry

    September 30, 2018
    I’m angry. For years, I wasn’t. And the times that I witnessed injustice or some other blood-boiling incident, I took Gandhi’s directive to heart. I...
  • The Struggle Is Real

    September 29, 2018
    Life has become extraordinarily difficult lately, and I’m struggling. Big time. With so many things. I’m facing the greatest financial uncertainty and stress that I’ve...
  • Love, Part 2

    February 19, 2018
    “You must be the change you wish to see in this world.” -Mahatma Gandhi Lately, I’ve been embracing vulnerability. My heart is consumed by the...
  • Love, Part 1

    February 7, 2018
    Despite this site’s alleged focus on compassion and love, I haven’t said much about either up until now. Most of my posts are inspired by...

Integrity. Compassion. Consciousness. Love.

The guiding forces of an awakened heart and an abundant life.

About this site


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My goals in life are simple:  to embrace uncertainty with grace, to never compromise my integrity, to take full ownership of my circumstances, and to bring more compassion, love, and light to our world.

On August 1, 1996, I nearly died by my own hand. This brush with death and the events that followed radically changed the trajectory of my life. The depression that had controlled me for a decade subsided as I learned to become accountable for my reactions to life’s struggles and to stop living my life for others. The path that I chose to follow was quite unconventional (and makes for great storytelling!), and I experienced a profound spiritual shift in the process.

This site is my personal blog where I share my journey, my successes masked as failures, and my failures masked as successes. It’s also a bit of an online journal.

I may not be your “normal” shining beacon of hope. But, my life is infinitely better than it once was, and I believe that it’s my responsibility to share the wisdom that I’ve gleaned through it all with those who are open to receive it. If this is you, welcome! I hope that you find something that resonates.